avast!

it bothers me slightly

2008-10-05T05:17:56Z

that it seems that no amount of exercise will ever result in me having an actual waistline.

one_more_tirade @ 2008-10-02T20:53:00

2008-10-03T00:56:08Z

I have decided to put an end to this silly moping. Starting today, I'm going to:

1. Finish my dress
2. develop my film
3. read more books
4. listen to more ska
5. run at least three times a week
6. curb my caffeine addiction
7. volunteer with those movie people tons and tons
8. ride my bicycle more
9. make an effort to be nicer to people

wish me luck

one_more_tirade @ 2008-09-29T21:02:00

2008-09-30T01:04:34Z

You smugsie assholes ruin everything. Nice job not even realizing how much i want to run the both of you over with my car.

I forgot how much I loved William Wegman!

2008-09-21T00:40:39Z

also, i don't want to go back to Tallahassee tomorrow...

one_more_tirade @ 2008-09-17T13:02:00

2008-09-17T17:07:22Z

but I hate her! well at least strongly dislike her! i really do. i really don't like her and i don't know why it still bothers me. i thought i'd be fine by now but i'm not at all. it's not fair and i don't like her and if they go to my fair, someones getting their face put in the cuban sandwich press.

one_more_tirade @ 2008-09-14T08:26:00

2008-09-14T13:17:11Z

so, i'm definitely never again going to do a shift trade that results in me working the 5-11 shift, and then coming in the next morning to do the 7-12 shift. needless to say, i'm TIRED. Also, i've noticed a trend lately: As i get less and less sleep, i become more and more unhappy. Whereas before, as a youngin', i would become irrationally giddy when i would get say, four, or five hours of sleep, now i become semi-rationally miserable. It's like, because i have nothing to do at my job but sit on the computer and dwell on my own loneliness, i really get a chance to think about how I'M LONELY. what a shocker. I never would have guessed that moving 314 miles away from my home, family, and best friends would make me homesick, or lonely, or any of that, i mean what a shocker.

i guess what it is is that lately, i've been having a hard time finding the motivation to do anything. i know it's really rather stupid, but i just can't seem to find any purpose or meaning in anything anymore. like sometimes i'll wake up, and look at the ceiling( it's like two feet away from my face, because my bed is a shelf) and go over what i'm going to do that day and just think to myself "ok, so i get up, procure some kind of breakfast, go to class, do something for some hours, go to class, and then come back, maybe watch a movie, and then go to bed, for what?" I'm having a hard time picturing what i'm going to do with my life. i mean sure, i'll get my degree, and then find employment somewhere, and then what? work? i mean, it just seems so pointless. i don't even know what i want.

i guess what it comes down to is that fact that i'm having trouble adjusting to life in a town where i don't have my family, or my best friends. it's really hard. and you know what else? i miss having someone who's willing to date me. i miss that nice support system. it's really reassuring to have someone to love/be loved by, and i miss it.

Can I please ask

2008-09-13T10:36:24Z

what the fuck happened with Temple of Doom???? did they let someone's 10 year old cousin write it? seriously, the only thing that made it at all worthwhile was CHILDFIGHT!!!

and what a childfight it was!

Ok, whoever came up with this is clearly a sicko, and needs to be removed from polite society.

2008-09-10T04:47:28Z

and just for the record, clamato contains high fructose corn syrup. thought you guys should know.

My old fav'

2008-09-08T06:01:45Z

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sNUDDaEOvuY

yeah, it's the animaniacs state capital song, and yes meghan, i know that you hate the animaniacs

P.S. I MISS YOU SO MUCH!!!!!!!

Motivational advice from me to you

2008-09-04T00:20:17Z

If I can drag my sorry, semi-asthmatic carcass on a 45 minute run up and down the hills of Tallahassee, so can you! (except in all of your respective towns, of course)

Also, I'm vaguely considering doing the reindeer run in Cape Canaveral in december and i would reaaalllyy like someone to do it with me...

My three most common phrases thusfar in my college adventure:

2008-08-31T00:27:57Z

"Remember when.... used to be cool?"

"I'm so tired, soooo tired."

and this one under my breath "fuck, fuck, fuuuuuck, fuckfuckfuckfuck."

one_more_tirade @ 2008-08-27T23:32:00

2008-08-28T03:34:21Z

i met a really nice boy at the front desk of my dorm, and he seemed genuinely concerned that i was freaking out because i thought i had lost my keys. i was dumb and didn't get his name. i'm only writing this because i know like four people read my livejournal, and for some reason i keep turning it over in my mind. oh well.

one_more_tirade @ 2008-08-17T00:46:00

2008-08-17T04:52:05Z

1.Where did you kiss the last person you kissed?
fucking a million years ago

2 .What’s the greatest thing that happened to you today?
cardigans, glorious cardigans

3. How many TRUE best friends do you have?
two

4.Would you rather get up early or sleep in?
well, that would all depend on when i went to bed

5.Tell me about the shirt you’re wearing?
it's the first polo shirt i ever bought, it's from old navy, and it's too short for my awkwardly long torso

6. What are you excited about right now?
not a whole lot.

8. Would you rather smile over a lie or cry over the truth?
welp, i've done my share of both, so i'll give heartfelt neither.

9. What’s on your bedroom floor right now?
boxes and boxes and shoes.

10. Who’s the last person you got into a argument with?
my mother

11. Do you trust people?
only a very few

12. If you could move away, no questions asked, where would you move?
wherever meghan or maura goes, i don't care much for living by myself.

13. Your favorite number?
i don't think i have one

14. Could you go a day without eating?
not happily

15. How much do looks matter to you in a guy/girl?
lots, i'm not just petty, i'm shallow too.

16. Do you like anybody right now?
decidedly not.

17. When was the last time you had your hair cut?
a week or so ago

18. Would you rather be mad or sad?
angry

19. Does it take a lot to make you cry?
nope

20. Whats the best feeling in the world?
the euphoria you get when you run really really far and do a good job at it. that's what i'm going to keep telling myself.

21.Are you close with your mom?
very much so.

22. Are your parents strict?
not particularly

23. Do you tell your parents everything?
Nope.

25. Name some fears you have:
the dark, bees, not getting a job after i get my degree, growing up to be a spinster.

26. Does the thought of marriage scare you?
only when i look at my parents

27. How many kids do you want?
approx. two

28. What’s your favorite season?
fall, hands down

29. What’s your favorite color to wear?
navy blue.

30. Who was the last person in your bedroom?
ME! hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha

31. What are you doing today?
church and ikea and mall and home and packing

35. Do you get bored easily?
not really

36. What’s something that someone can do that really bothers you?
oh there are so, so many.

37. Did you ever want to change your name when you were younger?
nien.

38. Do you wish you were famous?
only for the free stuff

39. Do you make a wish at 11:11?
i tried once, and i was very let down, so no.

40. When you go to the beach do you swim or lay out more?
50/50

41. Who’s the last text message you received from and what did it say?
andrea "He pretty much never forgets anyone too terribly so it shouldn't be that weird."

42. What are you freakishly obsessed with?
nothing i don't think

43. What’s your favorite song at the moment?
i'm spread out, it depends on what i'm thinking about

44. Do you like going to the mall to shop or just shopping online?
i don't trust the postal service.

45.Can music affect your mood?
yer

46. What piercings do you want?
not any

48.Have you ever been in a cave?
i've been in caverns!

49.Ever eaten a bug?
ew several times on accident

50. When will you hang out with the person you last kissed next?
in many a moon

51. Are you in a good mood?
i'm dissatisfied and surly, i'm in one of those running moods, but it's too fucking late to go for a run because i'm a girl

53. Would you rather skydive or bungee jump?
NEITHER

54. Do you like snakes?
yessir.

55. What’s one place you would like to visit?
Chicago

56. Do you like waffles?
yes, but i like pancakes better.

57. Does the number 23 have any significance to you?
no

58. Be honest, do you like people in general?
i try to sometimes, but it's hard to like people after you've much time at a customer service job/ have been repeatedly let down by people that you care about.

FAIL! FAILY FAIL! AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

63. Wanting to tell someone something?
i'm glad to have you as my friend, but sometimes the only way i an get through a conversation with you is to imagine myself breaking each one of your fingers individually. Also, sometimes i want to light you on fire. Oh, and while 85% of me hopes you succeed, the other 15% emphatically calls for FAILURE.

64. Last restaurant you went to?
taco bell.

65. What is the weather like today?
gray

66. What happened yesterday?
Maura/ Meghan/ Our Savior's Teen Ministry dinner. nice job on not showing up, EVERYONE.

67. What would you do with five million dollars?
buy my mother a nice house.

68. How many hours did you sleep last night?
ughh like fourish

69. Any upcoming concerts you want to attend?
yes! ben kweller in october and of montreal in november!

70. Who’s the last person that you felt was stalking you?
Victor, my Dominican suitor. He couldn't resist my domestic charms!

one_more_tirade @ 2008-08-07T13:43:00

2008-08-07T17:54:22Z

the first and only love of my young life has an apartment with the girl he started dating the day after we hung out and had an awkward non-dating makeout sesh. it only bothers me maybe 5% of the time, but when it bothers me, it really bothers me. tallahassee is really lonely, that's why i throw myself into like four projects at once. i consume myself with creating things, and thus feel less alone. also, i personify my car and my bike. on the Lauren Walz Scale of Lauren Walz Being Pathetic, today i'd give myself a round five. but that's a conservative estimate.

one_more_tirade @ 2008-07-15T12:57:00

2008-07-15T17:03:48Z

I have decided that Fennec Foxes are absurdly adorable, and thus need an entire post dedicated to them. Feast your eyes my freinds.

also, nobody should forget how cute pangolins are, because they are SO cute

i really love my family!

2008-06-04T02:07:22Z

my favorite graduation gifts:

from my uncle- a girly pocket knife
from my grandma- a brand new sewing machine
from my nana- A TWO FOOT PEPPERONI!
(sort of stolen) from my brother- a really neat folding bike

one_more_tirade @ 2008-06-01T10:18:00

2008-06-01T14:19:42Z

i've got no motivation, being lazy totally rulez
i need a summer vacation,

I'M NO LONGER IN HIGHSCHOOL!!!

soooooo

2008-05-25T04:12:44Z

JUST LIKE OLD TIMEZ!!

i mean i knew go play in traffic shows were fun, but i forgot exactly the magnitude of the fun! it was also really nice to see everyone, and even though the whole rest of the show severely blew, it was so worth it.

also, i have to leave in just over a month, and i'm really really really really really really reeaaaaaaaallly going to miss meghan and maura. really.

one_more_tirade @ 2008-05-21T17:15:00

2008-05-21T21:20:40Z

can you guess who has three cavities?

hint: the same girl also has a DECA STOLE!!!!

some people

2008-05-15T00:22:25Z

some people are just natural born barf-bags.

one_more_tirade @ 2008-05-04T12:44:00

2008-05-04T16:46:51Z

ok guys, which one of you wants to be my prom date?? any takers? what? no? oh, well, at least i'm consistent

one_more_tirade @ 2008-04-10T10:35:00

2008-04-10T14:41:43Z

i would like to meet someone who is:

1)taller than i am.

2)nicer than i am.

3)less selfish i am.

4)able to wear a beard without looking impish.

i don't care what anyone says,

2008-04-05T04:48:16Z

Coheed and Cambria blows.

one_more_tirade @ 2008-03-17T23:09:00

2008-03-18T03:13:30Z

If i think too hard about things.

also, i must question, was that really two years ago? i can't believe that much time has passed.

one_more_tirade @ 2008-03-15T15:55:00

2008-03-15T19:57:23Z

oddly enough, i really enjoy my job.